I love her so much. She is the one person I could imagine spending the rest of my life with.
I am weighing the thought of returning to my education, if only to get the grades required to get at least a half decent job.
I have been given an unwritten list of things that I have to change with myself if I am to continue a relationship with her.
One thing I have been struggling with is my jealousy, derived from my low self-esteem.
She told me yesterday that she plans to wear revealing items of clothing summer come, and I can not accept it.
I feel an anger rise from the mere fact that she is surrounded by males that are immensely attracted to her and this drives me to consider cutting all ties to her for her own good.
I have all regrets of having many traits identical to her current love, and I feel that when I turn eighteen I will most likely commit suicide or relocate.
But if I am as I am today, I can not live with myself, much less her.
In her time of difficulties, I hoped to be a source of happiness. It seems my wish will not come true.
She distances herself from me on the grounds of her depression, and this drives me into an emotional spiral downwards.
I have found that, if I do not get my fill of love with her, I get extremely depressed.
I am somehow glad that she is going home for a while, because maybe then, she might long for me.
That hope might be hollow.
I love her.
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