Fatherhood...

I learned yesterday that my love might be bearing my child, and my joy is infinite.
I never wanted a child until I fell in love with her. It was at that point I embraced her son as my own, and never saw him as her son, but our son. I will not attempt to replace his biological father, as every child needs their biological parents, and he seems to be a father who accepts his responsibilities as a parent.
I will take whatever role in Theo's life I am allowed, and I love him as much as I love his mother, despite having met him only once.
I find this love for him inexplicable, but I accept it enthusiastically. I can not wait for my child to arrive into this world, and I vow to never have more love for either child. They have equal value to me.
I have always been obsessed by genetic progress, and therefore, I always wanted a male child, but I find the gender not to matter to me as much.
I have simply come to the conclusion that I want a female more, seeing as I in some way already have a son...