Pathetic...

I have lost a great deal of my former prowess in the field of manipulation since my fall from my throne into the waters of love that has twisted much of my personality. I have kept my ideals to a certain extent, but have lost my self-control and find myself ruled by my emotions. I have only begun to tame the raging storm of shadows and fire that rages within me, but I have a long way to go.
I remain as honest and honorable as the day I decided to walk along that path and adopt the qualities I respected the most and began my analysis of mankind's several aspects.
I have become pathetic. I am all that I used to spit upon. But I am glad. The day she will love me and truly be mine is the day she makes me the human I idolize now.
I only wish that I can become the man she can accept.
Pathetic without regrets...