Conflict...

I am at crossroad, but, unfortunately, the decision of which path to take, does not lie with me.
I am constantly balancing on the line between hatred and love for her.
I am now aware of the reason of this sudden flip of emotions, and I now have knowledge of how I will be, depending of the answer I will recieve. I also know what behavioural patterns will follow me into my new personality. I will hate Dagge, the hatred being born after seeing her reactions to him, I will always see him as a competitor for her love, unless she answers me in the negative.
If she replies positive, my love for her will be unconditional, if she replies negative, my hatred shall know no bounds, and I will do everything to distance myself from her.
I am positive that she will say no, that she does not want me, all the signs point towards it.
This is the reason I have gained hatred for her, to be prepared when she does say no.
But my hope lingers, and so does my love. I can only wish that the hope is not false, and that my love is not wasted...