I have been viewing some of the old messages she used to send me, and I miss them. I miss the time when she missed me, the time when she liked me, maybe even loved me. I was a large part of her life back then, but no longer. Now, we have both made mistakes, and only my love for her seems to have persevered.
I love her so much, she is the beacon of hope for me, and the only reason I have become so different towards her, is because I have seen signs that she does not want me. My jealousy has only been strengthened by these signs. My life was forfeit before her, and it will be forfeit after her.
I have experienced love. I am only waiting for her to renounce me so I can end this miserable existance.
I can see a life with her, a happy one, but without her, I am nothing.
I wish I could turn back time and correct my mistakes, but she will not correct hers. She cannot see her mistakes as clearly as she should. If she wants me, she will have to at least see how she has wronged me. I will try never to wrong her and learn from my mistakes, if she will di the same. A relationship has to be on equal terms...
I miss her affections. She does not miss me, I miss her. She does not love me, I love her with all my heart. See does not respect my emotions as much as she should, I do not possess true empathy.
I love her more than I love myself.
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