I swing between hating her and loving her based on her actions. The more distance she puts between her and the choice she has to make, the more I hate her. When she seems to come to a decision, I love her. Today, she has only shown dislike towards me, and my nature forces me to respond in kind. When she acts cocky, I treat her like I would if she was anyone.
She should know better than to arouse my anger, while I would never intentionally hurt her when I love her, I would if she antagonizes me when I hate her. Yet, even then I would restrain myself from causing any actual damage. When I attempt to apologize to her, she ignores me, and by doing so, the problem.
I would change for her, but she seems hell bent on not asking, or even communicating.
I want to apologize, but she will not let me.
I wany her to hurt me as well, so that justice can be done, but she will not grant me that satisfaction.
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