Amazing...

Amazing how love can affect you, isn't it? I have had next to no communication with her today, and I feel terrible about it. I tried to leave it to her, to see if she even wanted to talk with me. Apparently not.
I bet she had time for T, though. Ah, well, such is the way of love. But I find myself longing for the time when we were quite content with eachother. Well, I was content with her anyway. She was all I could ever ask for.
I just wish she comes back to me again. If not... I dare not consider the alternatives.
I just hope she will sleep alone this weekend. It would prove that she still hold some measure of love for me, however small it seems to be.
If she does, it might be for some reason completely unrelated to me, like it always seems to be everytime she does something that makes me happy.
I miss her so much... I would give the world for her love. My deepest, darkest, most awful secret may leak out if things between us doesn't work out. And in the most horrible way, as well.

God, how I love, adore, worship and marvel at her mere presence. My precious angel of death and all other things beautiful...