Thank You...

I hope my angry posts have gone without recognition from you. You should know that I have to talk to someone, and I, unlike you, do not have any friends to turn to when I need to talk. Ever since Timmie moved, It has been very lonely for me. And I have been forced to use this blog to ventilate.
I wish most of the words of this blog never left my mind in any way, as I do not put any actual weight behind them. My mind is like a maelstrom of thoughts and I need to drain the storm from time to time.
The only words that will hold true are the ones with a positive sense. I love you with all my heart. That will never change. And I want to make this clear: The reason I can never be your friend is simple... I would not survive it.
I would literally be killing myself slowly with heartbreak. You mean too much to me. And no matter how many problems we might face, I want you to know that I will always be there for you, as long as you will have me.
If this ends badly, I want to thank you for being the first and only love of my life.
Without you, I would have died a happy death without regrets months ago. One should always have regrets No one should happily die. When I die, I want it to have been fighting. Fighting to stay by your side. I want you to be mine until the end, wishful thinking it may be, but it is what it is. I'm in it for the long haul.

                                      I love you, my gem, my goddess, my one, true love.